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11 January 2010

An American Expat in Italy Goes “Home”

As many of you know, I was back in the US from mid-November to late December. This was my first trip “home” since February 2004.

Yes I write it in quotes; as much fun as I had there, you see, I was also extremely excited and happy to get back to P, the pooches,

and the three kids (who, incidentally, we believe may all be pregnant!).

Stateside, I spent lots of time with family and friends, visited Philadelphia, New York City (where I met two online friends for the first time and met up with an old college friend–none of whom are shown in the photo below!)

and Washington DC,

helped my mom make cookies (which she sells for Christmas),

and shopped. A lot. The Christmastime prices in American malls? Worth the price of the airline ticket, quite frankly.

For instance, P was amazed that I could get him a pair of Levi’s for $30 (€21) when they cost, oh five times that here. My other spectacular purchases for myself include a new iPod Touch (to make it easier to read English language books, mainly) and a new external hard drive.

NB: Anything technological/electronic costs *way* less in America than it does in Italy.

My biggest culture shock actually came very early on in the trip when I couldn’t. stop. speaking. Italian. It was the weirdest thing! On the plane over, no matter what language the person addressing me was speaking, I would answer in Italian…and only sometimes catch that I had done it–once purely by the blank look on a fellow passenger’s face.

The two hardest things to stop saying were “Ciao!,” “Grazie!,” and “Sì!” So I imagine I just looked like a really pretentious American for at least the first few days of the trip. Oh well.

The other thing that was hard to get used to? Things being open in the afternoon. So strange to be able to go shopping or *gasp* get something to eat between one and four! Lovely.

I still have lots of photos to go through and post on Flickr (and possibly here), and probably a lot of mental processing of the whole experience. Soon I’ll be publishing my “Top 10 Realizations After Being “Home” for the First Time in Nearly Six Years” so please check back!

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Absolute Vanilla on 11 Jan 2010 at 7:27 am #

I think we can safely say you’ve become completely Italian!

Hmmm certainly in many ways I’m used to the European lifestyle

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Gil on 11 Jan 2010 at 8:32 am #

When you and your mom make cookies you make cookies! That picture looks like it was taken in a bakery in Italy! Good thing you remember how to write in English! If this blog was in Italian it would take me all day to figure out what you wrote.

Haha, don’t worry Gil–NO danger of that happening. And that was actually just a small part of the cookies…oh the batters!!!
yvonne on 11 Jan 2010 at 8:42 am #

Wow! does your mom ship those cookies to her customers from out of state? I would adopt her for my next holiday! lol

She only shipped out one set this year on special request…but arrangements could be made
Mary on 11 Jan 2010 at 9:13 am #

I’m sure there was a lot of culture shock! It’s only been 3 years since I’ve been back but I’m sure I would have a hard time adjusting.

In some ways, it was really like I’d never left…but I do attribute a lot of that to how connected we can be via Internet these days

Mary´s last blog ..Twins
jmisgro on 11 Jan 2010 at 11:17 am #

Frank cannot remember that nothing is open between 1 and 4 or on a Sunday night! Here you can get gelato or caffe on a Sunday night but no stores are open.

Sunday is just a killer here…although on the other hand, it’s usually a rather relaxing day. Even if I spend part of it cleaning, I know the rest of it won’t be full of running around!
Jacques on 11 Jan 2010 at 11:38 am #

I often have the same problem of switching gears, though sometimes worse: for some unexplainable reason for the first couple days I tend to speak to my wife in English (we normally speak only Italian) and my English speaking relatives in Italian.

I also couldn’t get used to the store hours again: one night I decided I had to go to the grocery store and get something at 11:30pm just because I could, I missed it so much.

Another thing I love in the States are the Dollar Stores, which besides all the cheap “junky” stuff that the Euro stores have over here and are only at Euro stores, also have enough good “remainders” that are really bargains worth stocking up: I got beautiful 2010 calandars for lots of people for $1 each! Plus 8-packs of velcro cable ties when in Italy they cost €4 per five-pack. The back of my desk has never looked neater.

Oh excellent on the dollar stores! They really *don’t* just have junk…I don’t know about those velcro cable ties…may have to send my mom on a mission! Interestingly I didn’t have a problem switching back to Italian when I came back….
Lesley on 11 Jan 2010 at 11:46 am #

Oh Michelle, I know just what you mean about Grazie, Ciao and Si.
Even when we pop to the UK for a quick visit it is impossible to stop using those Italian words that are now completely second nature….

Isn’t it funny how you really just don’t even think about it?!
mah on 11 Jan 2010 at 1:26 pm #

Coming back the modern squalor and the widespread urban blight of Calabria – after some days spent in the splendor of NYC – must be really hard, must it?

Please feel free to go be depressed in your own life, mah; I couldn’t be happier with mine <3
meredith on 11 Jan 2010 at 1:49 pm #

I’m always affected like that. I can’t help but saying bonjour when I walk into a store…at least the first few days I’m back

Oh my! I almost forgot a conversation I had with a stranger in Philly…when it was time to end it, all I wanted to say was “Buon giorno!” and couldn’t figure out how to say the “right” thing; finally he said, “Have a good day!” and I was thinking, “YES! That’s it!!!” Hahaha

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Valerie on 11 Jan 2010 at 3:29 pm #

I had the same problem, automatically responding in Italian and reaching for English words sometimes. Weird feeling! I also still forget that things are open all through the afternoon (and was shocked to see how many places are open 24 hours around here!)
Bentornata in Calabria. Sounds like our kids have been…uh, frolicking!

Indeed they have! Hopefully we can meet up when you’re here

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LindyLouMac on 11 Jan 2010 at 3:45 pm #

Welcome home!

Grazie

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City Girl on 11 Jan 2010 at 3:54 pm #

Loved this post – I am going back to Switzerland in a couple of weeks since late 2002/early 2003, so I am really wondering how the culture shock will affect me.

Oh wow, you’re in a similar boat, so to speak…can’t wait to read about your experiences!

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Ninotchka on 11 Jan 2010 at 4:07 pm #

Neat! Can’t wait to hear more.

More coming…but please be patient
mah on 11 Jan 2010 at 6:07 pm #

so you’re very fond of unfinished buildings and urban blight, are you?

Me? So glad you asked!

I love medieval villages with character and stone buildings with well-earned battle scars of times and people past; I love walking the same narrow, winding streets that my great-great-grandfather walked as he set off early in the morning to do thankless work in a baron’s field; I love rolling green hills full of olive, lemon, and mandarin orange groves that have fed many generations of not just Calabrians, but Italians as well; I love waking up in the morning and going out on the balcony to take in the fresh mountain air with NO pollution, looking out to the pristine Ionian Sea, deciding whether I’ll take a walk on the beach or go further into the mountains to tend to the campagna that gives us so much in return for our hard work; I love my neighbors who are never without a smile, a kind “ciao,” an offer of coffee, and most likely a plateful of something delicious, either homegrown or homemade….intanto adoro la mia vita in Calabria….

But on another note, have you ever seen rundown areas in cities (no matter what country)? Or other small (and large) towns around the world that are slowly dying because the younger generations are leaving for work in the cities (yes, I come from one of those in the US, so I assure you they exist there as well)?

It is easy to look anywhere and criticize as nowhere is perfect. We can choose to see ugly or we can choose to see beauty–no matter what situation we’re in. You may do as you please. I’ve made my decision.
Kristin on 11 Jan 2010 at 8:02 pm #

Mom’s cookies look …. delicious!! I’m so disappointed we couldn’t meet up – I brag to everyone I know about my wonderfully, brave friend who picked up her life and moved to Italy. Miss you!

You would’ve had some if the Blizzard of ‘09 hadn’t hit! Miss you too! xo
saretta on 11 Jan 2010 at 8:08 pm #

Welcome back, Michelle! I can’t believe you hadn’t been to the States since 2004, you must have had a lot of reverse culture shock on many levels! I get it in both directions…from here to the States and from the States back to here! LOl!

I didn’t get much coming back here, but I think it’s because the timing was so lopsided…only six weeks there after six years here; it’ll be interesting to see what it’s like the next time I come back here after perhaps not taking so long to get used to there…if that makes sense

saretta´s last blog ..Lover’s Field
Lisa on 11 Jan 2010 at 9:34 pm #

When I lived in Rio and returned to the states for visits or spent summers in France to study, I did the same thing you did, Michelle, for the first few days. Be it the US or France I would unconsciously throw out the fun and casual Brazilian greetings like …”Oi, tudo bem?” and “Obrigada” to the natives. In the US I got strange looks, while in France they’d asked me, “Vous êtes brasilienne?”
And yes, I too, would go on shopping sprees while in the US, since somethings just couldn’t be found cheaply in South America.
I’m so glad you had a wonderful visit to the states. I hope to get to Philly in the next few months.

Hah, funny to be mistaken for yet another nationality! The prices in the US are just *so* much better on so many things…I ended up saving money (so to speak!) even with the extra luggage charges. Enjoy Philly! I really think the city has gotten nicer since I’ve left–both aesthetically (especially around the Art Museum) and personally…so many random good mornings and hellos
Rosa on 12 Jan 2010 at 9:39 am #

Welcome home! Glad to hear that you enjoyed your visit back in the States.

Each time I go back home, it takes a few days to readjust as well, like shopping at Walmart on a Wednesday. I miss my Sunday shopping.

Well, welcome home.

Thanks Rosa

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Eleftheria on 12 Jan 2010 at 11:27 am #

I know EXACTLY what you mean.
I left in 2002 and went back last year (2009).
On my flight from Germany to the US which was with Delta, I had not see that many Americans in one place in seven years.
The flight attendant asked me something before takeoff and I answered in Greek.
I had lived most of my life in Seattle however my parents now live in Florida, there I experienced a whole new culture..shock!! Not to mention I left in boots, wool jacket and scarf only to arrive there and see that I was the only one not wearing shorts and a tshirt. I did get some weird looks on the plane from the other passengers and some people at the airport.

Haha, yes I only had a little bit of a climate change since the weather was actually pretty mild in Philly when I landed…turned quickly to snow though! Seeing so many Americans in one place *was* a weird thing! My first experience with it was at the Rome airport. Soooo strange to hear all that English with accents from all over the country!
Di on 12 Jan 2010 at 3:26 pm #

Welcome Back,
Just wanted to let you know that I added your site to my list of Southern Italy blogs.
Yours was the second one I ever found.

Thanks Di! And piacere

Di´s last blog ..From Pausa to Passeggiata
Mental Mosaic on 12 Jan 2010 at 10:46 pm #

I look forward to reading more about your USA culture shock. I have done the same thing with words like ciao and grazie in the states. Certain words become so automatic!

Haha, good to know I’m not alone

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Milanese Masala on 12 Jan 2010 at 11:29 pm #

Great to have you back! I totally get your culture shock. I usually speak English at home and try to go back to Canada once a year so I don’t have too much of a problem switching back but whenever I answer the phone I have to really concentrate and stop myself from saying “Pronto”. Oh, and I also say “Boh!” a lot.
The one thing that I found since I left was how much English (esp. slang) has changed over the years and how archaic I must sound to my friends. I’m still stuck in 1996! In my day, one would say “I really LIKE living in Italy” but now it’s all too common to hear “I’m really LIKING living in Italy” Ugh!

Oh I haven’t heard that…maybe it’s a Canadian thing? Interesting! Also, “boh” is definitely another one! As is “Mah!”

Milanese Masala´s last blog ..Sant’Ambrogio Winterlude
Esme on 13 Jan 2010 at 5:19 am #

Your children are pregnant-not to ask a dumb question-how if they are all female-what is the gestation period for mama goats. Seems like you had a wonderful time at home. 6 years that is a long time.

Not a dumb question! We borrowed a male to put in with them for about a month in the fall; they have 150 days of gestation, which means if they’re with kids, they’ll deliver in March-ish

Esme´s last blog ..Butternut Squash Cranberry Hash
Jenny Woolf on 13 Jan 2010 at 8:50 am #

I sometimes find that even being away for a few weeks gives me a new perspective on my home in London, or England. I’ll be interested to read your further thoughts.

Thanks for coming by Jenny!
Julie Angelos on 13 Jan 2010 at 10:43 am #

I love your blog! I’m so happy I came across it this morning. I truly think it was a case of serendipity because I had just been to the profumeria in a small town near my house and my heart was bleeding for America. I also live in Italy and have done so for 15 years. I don’t know when I am going to get used to it.

I relate on so many levels to your dual lives in US and Italy. The two worlds, the languages, the cultures are so different yet so similar I think you could write forever and never exhaust the subject.

The cost of living here to me is so over the top expensive. I bought suitcases full of things in the states last summer. I wish I had bought the right top of Ziploc bags at Walmart because I have yet to find them in Italy. I tell you, my mother-in-law who cooks round the clock would love them. Unfortunately I got baggies which are so not the same.

I dream of the racks and racks of affordable cosmetics such as Maybelline. Today at the perfume store – if you can call it that – they sold everything from Dior to cat litter. Don’t ask me why. I picked up a mascara that I know only costs $9 in the states and here they want $26. I put it back fast.

Please keep up the good blog content. I appreciate it. Have a great day. Love your life in Italy. It’s such a beautiful place.

Julie

Please feel free to visit my blog. I’m a blogger at http:www.jangelos.wordpress.com

So happy you stopped by, Julie! Ziplocs were *absolutely* in my suitcase…yes, I took them out of their boxes and kind of just stuffed them anywhere they fit I look forward to reading your blog as well!

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nyc/caribbean ragazza on 13 Jan 2010 at 4:05 pm #

Welcome home Michelle!

I speak mostly english here (I’m working on that ) but when I was in St. Martin I would answer French speakers with Italian. I couldn’t for the life of me say “oui” or “merci” instead of “si” and “grazie”. My brain was very confused!

Haha, I imagine! Especially with two romance languages floating around….
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laura schenone on 15 Jan 2010 at 8:17 pm #

Hi Michelle,

Love this post. Wow about waiting 5 years to return. Can’t wait to find out your realizations. Next time you are in nyc give me a call. admire your blog very much and would be fun to have coffee.

Just so you know even after a week in Italy I have trouble switching back to bye, thanks and yes. And I’m not even fluent.

ciao!

L

Would love to meet up with you too, Laura! This time I had one day in NYC and realized VERY quickly that I needed at least two more to meet up with all the wonderful friends I have in the metro area….
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Grace @ Sandier Pastures on 25 Jan 2010 at 7:34 am #

Glad to know you were able to go home after quite a while in Italy! I can relate to speaking the foreign language despite being in your home country. I couldn’t stop speaking in Japanese on the first days in the Philippines too! And worst of all? I kept on bowing my head – very humiliating and definitely look strange to other non-Japanese people!!

Haha, that’s funny Grace! Glad you stopped by

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PassagetoItaly on 09 Mar 2010 at 7:06 am #

Hey Michelle!

Finally I’ve been able to nearly catch up with all the posts you’ve written since the birth of your blog! lol Glad you had such a great time here in the States. I must say that in 2008, when I spent 3 months in Italy, I too responded to everyone in Italian, and not intending to. For those 3 months, Italian was the only language I spoke, except when I called my parents once a week. For some reason, “si’”, “grazie”, “permesso”, and “ciao” flew out of my mouth every time I answered someone. It was really strange. lol

Hope all is well in the Bel Paese!

It really is amazing how quickly those throwaway phrases become second nature! Glad you’re caught up; thanks so much for making the effort!